Cold feet and frozen eggs

Getting cold feet about egg freezing after hearing it's painful. I have a terrifically low pain threshold - when giving birth I had gas & air, a diamorphine injection and an epidural that was kept topped up for 18 hours.

The appointment is for next Friday. I've told the Prince, desperate he would scoop me up in his big warm arms and say "oh my darling you don't have to do it - cancel it. It's stupid. I know how much this means to you now and your happiness is so important to me. Let's get married and start afresh."

Instead, this was the reaction.....

"Oh."

Thing is, I know if he sits back and watches me go to Birmingham it's him basically saying he's not giving two fucking figs for this union. His only concern is his relationship with Rosie. He's a fantastic father, a great flatmate, a lousy lover/husband.

Christmas was good. The rope's getting looser now and the bubble's wobbling again. Just have to make it through January then I can start on selling the flat. Stay strong Indigo - not long to go.