Eggs and holidays

Spoke to him yesterday about the egg freezing and the holiday. It's strange, if the holiday had been booked just a couple of months ago I'd have been totally excited. Now I just feel confused. It's not booked yet.

"I would love to go to Egypt with you," I said. "But as your lover, not as a flatmate."
"Well remember Rosie's sharing a room with us," he said.

So what to do? It's hugely expensive. We do need to try and work this out. Am terrified we will be silent strangers, pretending to enjoy ourselves. He quizzed me about why I appear reticent re. the holiday and I told him about the egg freezing. He was fairly shocked.

"How come you're suddenly able to find £3,000," was his first comment. He doesn't like the idea. But money shmoney - it's gotta be done for my sanity. I may have an ice baby one day in the future.

Am quite used to ice people - I'm living with an ice man right now. If our hands accidentally touch in the night he whisks his away. It's so lonely. Are we going to be able to get back on track? I don't know how to do this.