Facebook Paranoia

God it helps having my efriend here. I can be brutally honest about Facebook. I hate it. It represents to me everything that's wrong in my life. I am totally paranoid.

Why does he check out friends on Bunny's page?
Why does he not have me as his friend?
Why does he check out what some girl from his school looks like, about 15 times?
(All there on the History page)

Why does he say he's 30, when he's 31? (his answer to this is "it's so I can take a year to be used to my real age." Pathetic. How does that make me feel when I'm 40 next year? Are we really just not right anymore? If so, let's not waste time. We can do this amicably - no more pretending things are going to get better. They are getting worse.

I hate the internet age. It's awful. It's made me a paranoid, insecure WRECK. A fucking schizophrenic.

I asked him "what am i supposed to think when you don't even come near me anymore?"
He replied, "well we're going through a bad time."

I'd rather he owned up. Just be honest and say he's curious to check out these women, you know what they look like? Are they fanciable?

He gets so ANGRY if I try to bring these subjects up. Tries to make out I'm an idiot and it makes me "unattractive" and "pushes him away even more".

And something else happened which I can't even write here to you efriend. I think he lied to me about something during his tirade that I'm imagining all this.

Instinct and I are old friends - it's never let me down - EVER. I trust that more than him at this raw stage.