Emotional Business

The blood arrived. I just checked. It will go in a fridge now until Monday when they'll start the tests. Well on the road now to my ice baby.

At last week's marriage therapy the counsellor said she thought I could benefit from sessions by myself with someone new. Nat laughed all the way home "see there's nothing wrong with me! ha ha".

Went to see new woman this week - by god was I in a hurry. She was flippin' marvellous.

She said: "So neither of you know how to make eachother feel special anymore. You feel unloved. He feels loved simply for his sperm?"

It threw up something I'd never thought about so I asked the Prince. He said yes. But then he would wouldn't he. This is a little life line for him.

I don't know how to make him feel loved for anything other than that right now. Things have just gone too far inside the head. Am at a loss.

Talked about how to break up.

"You sit and establish the relationship is not working anymore - no one's fault, it's simply not. Then you take the emotion out and you treat it like a business. You work out how to divide your assets, the biggest of which is Rosie."

Felt calm after that. Put it to him this morning. I said, "come on, you can't honestly tell me you want to carry on like this - it's been going on for such a long time."

And he replied, "things have to get worse before they get better!"

"How much worse? they surely can't get any worse than they are now - we are cold strangers who never make love and both feel unloved."

Then Rosie came in and luckily for him the conversation drew to an end.